I have three ways of keeping track of time right in front of me: my phone, my wrist watch and the computer screen. But I have no way of shaking up this sensation, at least for now, of how passive I am feeling. I keep expecting something to happen, for me to have an opportunity to do something else besides just sit here all day and think of how empty things are.

I am trying to focus inside – do what calms me down and just pour my feelings into art, but there’s still 8 hours/day where I just constantly think about being somewhere else and hit the refresh button seeking something different.

listening while writing: Feist – Lonely Lonely